self harm is an addiction I thought I was over but I guess not. go me.
why do I have to relapse at the party I’m throwing?
maybe being suicidal will make me skinny bcus all I’ve eaten is a lean cuisine microwave dinner and that was at 10am
my hands look like small child hands I feel small and infantile and scared and alone
I don’t want to record videos of me singing because I’m fat and ugly and I suck at music.
right now id do fucking anything to lose like 30 lbs
being around people who also struggle w eating disorders n weight is not good for me
just wanna go home
I wish I didn’t have to exist
very tired of living
feels shitty man