I want to be dead please just let me be dead

WHEN IM ALONE I CANT CONVINCE MYSELF ANYTHING ELSE IS HAPPENING

I CANT BE LEFT ALONE I CANNOT BE ALONE

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I fucking hate her

I feel really bad for not being very sexual anymore. I just don’t want to have sex. I think I used to want to have sex a lot and I used to be very sexually driven when I was just falling for/pursuing someone but in the act I just. don’t care. and I keep pushing drew away when he initiates it and I can tell he gets sad even when he says he doesn’t care and I am probably grey asexual and I feel really sad because it feels like I’m not giving him what he wants. which is always my sexual relationships and I don’t want to feel like this. because then my anxiety about it latches on to other anxieties and my bad thoughts tell me that he will seek out sexual pleasure elsewhere. he’ll find someone else to please him and I can’t stand the thought of that bcus I know it’s just one specific person that my brain tells me and I hate it and I want to die

ugh

it would be ideal to die today

don’t act like she’s your best fucking friend. she’s nothing. fucking nothing

ive been having so many violent thoughts abt her this needs to stop

self harm is an addiction I thought I was over but I guess not. go me.