I wish I didn’t have to exist
very tired of living
feels shitty man
I SEE YOU LOOKING AT MY READMORES I WISH YOUD JUST UNFOLLOW ME ALREADY jesus christ
i’m glad i have somewhere i can spill my bad brain to but like damn it’s just flooding now
i do not deserve any of the friendships or relationships ive managed to scrape by with
i dont deserve any of the kind people in my life i am so fucking terrible
god i’m just a fucking terrible shitty person who fucks up every relationship cool!!!!!!!
i used to have a group of people id hang out with when i came to eastern
now ive either pushed them all away or stopped hanging w them bcus i’m so much more anxious and people are time consuming and theyre also shitty
i’m so lonely
i have no friends nearby besides drew and ricci but like. roommate and significant other.
i dont have people to go out with and i dont even have the energy to go out anymore
my free time is spent going to the mall by myself!!!!!! my free time is running errands and playing with my cat and sleeping!!!!
its not like i hate everyone ive just like idk
i’ve literally forgotten how to make friends or tolerate people
ive stopped making exceptions for shitty behavior and simultaneously alienated myself
a girl sat by me today and said hi and i literally just stared at her
i’m terrible and i feel terrible and it feels like i have no friends and no one to turn to.
glares @ drews old friends who r still friends w his abuser
glares @ my friends who still have my ex added on fb
need a lady to come fuck me